Day 20. Have a headache on and off three days. Cranky and lonely today. But I'm doing a much better job with recovery than in the past. Maybe I'm a little more motivated. One of the older guys pointed out that I'm relatively young at 35 but that I could easily lose some years if I relapsed and then I wouldn't be. I don't know but it sounds reasonable. So I'm going to at least 5 meetings a week, calling other alkies, networking and socializing and trying to make myself be of service in small ways. Plus I'm actually praying a bit which is hard to believe even as I'm doing it.