Thank you for your advice, I know I must stay strong.
Your story made me cry. I wish that we were two normal people, getting a divorce for 'normal' reasons. SO POLITICAL TO BE WITH/break up with an A!!!!! There is such a good man beyond his demons. I see mostly the demons now but of course I still love that good man. I just sent myself a PM telling myself that I am stronggg! (and I rock and thank you) hahaa. I will see how it goes. Part of me says it will just give him false hope and so what?! That's what he gave me! But the other doesn't want him to hurt more (Codie?) so maybe I'll wait n see if after the divorce is filed he wouldn't mind crumpling to the floor in a ball-o-tears with me. We really did view each other as besties, soulmates, fellow goof balls. It's hard when u love someone, and then life happens. Now to cry myself to sleep
not so bad, it'll all be over soon.