lizloh

I have feelings sneaking in saying... This will be over so soon, and you will never hold him in your arms again. I am starting to cry now as I dredge them up. We have been in separate beds for a month now. He has known for about 3 weeks that I want a divorce, I reiterated it the other day and he got mad. Now we are being cordial again. I do not want to give him hope, but (starting to cry again :-/) this man I considered to be my best friend. My grandma has said that divorce is like a death, andmy heart just feels so sad and that him as a part ofmy life is dying. Am I crazy to want to feel him close to me one more time? My resolve is strong, I am not second guessing, nor do I feel it would lead to that. I just can't help but start hurting badly when I think I've already held him for the last time if anything I guess these thoughts are good for a cry and a feel, as I am now sobbbing