Welcome, Cheese. We have members from all over the place here, and the member that is most welcome is the newest one. Grab a chair and make yourself comfy.
After reading for a bit you will find hundreds of posts from people who describe experiences just like yours, and that can be comforting. We are not unique in the least in our addictions, and that means that we can share our experiences in getting sober too.
The best predictor of a secure and permanent abstinence is an ironclad will and a solemn vow to quit drinking. Make this vow, and let it set your behaviour. Make this abstinence as easy as possible for you, starting with the belief that you will succeed, because you will succeed and stop drinking someday. You get to pick the day, you see, and today looks just perfect.