Oh, Shell, you need to just let it go. Try to do something for yourself tonight. Take a bubble bath, watch a movie, eat a favorite food. So sorry for your day. He's clearly in no condition to be who you'd like him to be tonight, or maybe anytime in the near future. You did try to be around him in a positive way, I see that, but it can't ever be good or what you need when he's using. So sorry. Get some sleep. Don't worry about where he is. You get the picture, you know the story. Now try to make your own story--one where his moods and his addiction have no power over you.Peace. Peace. Peace.