Good post. I didn't either, but then I read this book called "Trusting God" by Jerry Bridges and it really helped me big time for the first time to REALLY let go....
This is a Christian book, but maybe you can find a booklet that is geared toward your HP if he is defined in a traditional sense?
I think it is super hard to trust and let go and I struggled for 22 yrs, then somehow everything came together for me at the same time, I met w/ my pastor, the BB, that book, along with an old tape series someone GAVE me at a garage sale....it was a miracle cuz i was such a control freak before.
Prayers for you to really trust and be able to let go.....
blessings, Lily