Just for today.... stay in this moment. No one knows for certain what the future holds... will he actually get and stay sober? Who knows.
Maybe he does recover... and you reconcile? Who knows!
Maybe he relapses as soon as he gets in his apartment... who knows!
One thing is for certain... you will have peace and calm in your house. You will be free from random peeing and alcoholic insanity.
It was so sad to end my marriage. It's a loss I had to grieve... and then move on from. Getting caught up in the "what ifs" kept me stuck in my healing and prevented me from moving forward. Staying in the moment is the only thing that works!
Honor your feelings of grief today. Treat yourself kindly and gently... and go do something fun... just for you!!