Yes. I lie to myself. I realize that now. I think we do it as a way to protect ourselves sometimes. I don't do it to anyone else...or let me rephrase that...I don't blatantly lie to others. I might tell white lies so others feelings aren't hurt but I don't completely fabricate stories to anyone else BUT MYSELF. I see so many similarities between your story and mine. Thank you for asking this. Yes I do lie to myself A LOT and I need to look at this...why do I do it and correct myself to stop. I need to work on taking down that veil of denial...really look at things as if I was seeing things thru someone else's eyes and get real...get honest. I guess that's the only way we truly begin to heal and move forward in a positive way - with ourselves. The other stuff will follow.