Thing is hubby knows this, I told him I am quitting, I'm tired of being filled with anxiety, self hatred, self doubt. I am tired of him being pissy with me when I act afool, he doesn't like me drunk, I do t remember me drunk, just pay for it the next day with more anxiety and hatred and embarrassment and then fuel the beast with yet another bottle of wine. He knows this is best for me, but the day after I told him I was done, he said here ya wanna a beer?? I was like uh no..... But on day 5 I was weak, he said you don't have to stop completely, just don't get wasted.... Yeah, we'll I don't ever plan on getting wasted and acting like a fool, it just happens. I go from from classy to trashy in about 2 hours or so!! I feel so good when I am sober, I feel like I can conquer the world. He just doesn't understand it, he would rather me drink and then he can be angry at my poor decisions. Blah blah blah..... This is about me this time. No one else!