GardenMama: I am going to the appt bc he asked me to go. I do realize that some of my motive is to make sure he actually goes, which is bad/controlling, i know. And another part of me wants to see the drug test results, I know he has been denying using & he makes me feel absolutely out of my mind crazy when he does that& spins his web of lies and manipulation! I guess part of me needs to know that I am NOT crazy, that my suspisions are true and to trust those instincts.
As far as the job search goes, I called about 15 of the jobs I applied for today and I am hoping that leaving all those messages will do me some good, maybe they'll dig my app&resume out of the pile and call me back. I can only hope!