hi there,
i paid my son's rent for him 2 weeks ago so he wouldn't be homeless, or have to move back here!! guess what, he used the money for something else that he found more important, his past due car payment. now he still is getting evicted today. wow that worked. i forgot to respect the fact that he has a life and i have to stop rescuing. i also secretly was wondering if some of the money would maybe be for coke. how stupid was that. my old habits die hard. my ability to figure out everybodies problems except for my own really amazes me. my son also now feels guilty that he had to take aloan from his mom who has no money. i think i'm really having a hard time letting anyone including myself hit recovery.
back to the drawing board, detach with love for me ,not money. it's so hard to figure it out. step 1 here i come again!!! i am powerless over my whole family, and boy do i love them.
hugs from sugar
maybe we can all work today on our insanity