Of course I don't think I am solely defined by drinking. I am an all around nice guy too but the drinking is why I am here.... Why I am sharing to the world on the net.
With that definition goes a whole new life. I turning point in an otherwise straight road.
My point was I realize that I keep trying to change the definition of it all. Say I can moderate. Say I am not an alcoholic. No matter how it's defined it's the effects that tell the tale.
I am stopping all the deflections. Accepting it. Learn to live with it. And move on to the next big adventure now that I am getting my life back.
Clearly all this is mental masturbation. But sometimes a little self gratification is required.