Empty shell - I so sorry for the pain you are experiencing. Sounds like you reached a new depth of depression. Do you have a sister or friend you can confide in? You need someone to love you back. Your hubby isn't capable of this right now. The love for the drug is stronger. Today, take a baby step - do one thing for you. Call a friend for a cry session. You are grieving the loss of your husband (the real one, not the addicted one). Surround yourself with people to shore you up. You can find strength to get through this and make the right decisions.