I also get a kick out of seeing people succeed, but watching people trip seems to engage this troublesome "me too" reaction.
I think you heard that wrong. I think your addiction actually said "you too". It just sounds like "me too"...
Perhaps that's AV telling me I can't handle it, but what if she's right?
Ha, see that? You said:
Perhaps that's AV telling me I can't handle it
And she added:
but what if I'm right?
Remember, all self-doubt is, by definition, AV. That includes any fears that once you break free of this, you'll find a bigger, badder problem waiting for you on the other side of recovery. Whatever that mastiff represents, it's best handled with a clear mind and a positive attitude, right?
You're gonna tame that little beastie in no time. Pretty soon you'll be playing mind games on it, walking around it, staring at its butt (that's just plain mean, FS... lol).
Keep thinking about it, Obladi, keep reading and stay aware. Turn your confidence all the way up. You can do this. Recognize any thoughts to the contrary for what they are...