I dont know how much this will help you but i am going thru the same thing i am surviving and have good and bad days my heart hurts for what ive lost it hurts for my children it hurts for there father who is so lost when i was told this i was like thanks alot and duh but one day at a time is how im getting thru it everyday i get a little bit stronger i cant say for him what the future brings because i have no control over that but know you are not alone and you will find the support you need here and in my opinion your strength is a sucess story