My depression treatment wasn't working, and my Dr. asked me how much I was drinking. Of course, I lied. That's what I used to do. I told her that I was drinking about a third of what the real number was. I was told to 'see if I could control it to two drinks a day'.
The day came when I came clean, and told her that I had really been drinking a couple dozen, and that I hadn't had a drink in a week. I was watching her reaction very closely, and she didn't even bat an eye. She just got on with the rest of the conversation, no judgement, just a recognition and a congratulations.
Travis, do this thing. You won't be judged, you will just get to hear what you need to do next, for your health and for your future. I wish you the best.