keep doing what you are doing....we all work at our own pace...including you...this is a LIFETIME journay..not just for today...be patient with your self...STOP, LISTEN and LEARN...there is so much growth to be done! (lol)
when it comes to reacting?...stop and count to 10? slowly it will come together and you will find your point that you can stop reacting...
but sometimes walking away is good..