38 days sober and not feeling well
Hi all,
I haven't posted in quite awhile but I remember how much support and kindness I've received from the people on these boards and figured I'd post here for some advice, encouragement.
I have been sober for 38 days now having relapsed quite a few times this year. I've been to rehab, a few hospital detoxes and have reached the point where I know that if I drink, I will die.
I have a lot to go through this week. I have court for dui and am terrified. I'm anxious and having panic attacks. I'm not having any cravings and have been going to AA meetings almost every day. I'm also working the steps with a sponsor. I just feel so horrible, sometimes I wouldn't mind dying.
Thanks for letting me vent.