It's easy to be high or drunk. Drug addicts and alcoholics know exactly how they're going to feel from one minute to the next, because substances have the same effect every time. It never changes. It was easier to regulate my mood when I was using because I was good at it, and I knew what combinations would give me the desired effect.
In sobriety, that has been the hardest thing for me. I feel depressed and angry and anxious quite often. I try to tell myself that FEELINGS ARENT FACTS. They are just feelings. They go away and they change. Feeling good in sobriety for me is getting harder and harder and thats not how I pictured it being. I had so many problems when I was using that when I made the decision to get sober, I thought they would all go away.
No one told me they got worse. All the feelings I've been surpressing for years are coming to the surface and I don't know how to deal with them. But they are not permanent. This too shall pass.