Pigtails. hugs. thank you so much for letting us know what is going on. You are part of this community no matter where you are in your recovery.
I have also experienced miscarriages, I understand the myriad of feelings associated with that. Many communities have face to face support groups for couples (or individuals) who have experienced a miscarriage, or, if the net is more comfortable for you, online groups. Just as with addiction recovery, it is so helpful to have others to share with, learn from, cry and celebrate with.
Just as before, when you are ready, when you are sick of the pointlessness of drinking, you will put it down and pick up your recovery again.