i'm with you on the baby issue, scacra. i'm thirty two and VERY aware of my biological clock. i saw glimpses of my amazing xabf through all of his drunkenness, and know that if he ever found long-term sobriety AND faced his underlying issues, he would be one hell of a daddy! he, too, wants children. in fact, one of the things he said to me when he begged for me to come back to him in december, was that he was so excited for us to someday turn one of the spare bedrooms into a nursery! me and my baby fever fell for that hook, line, and sinker. i'm a traditionalist when it comes to having kids, and wanted to wait until we were married, but it was not in the cards, and instead of moving forward as couple, he flipped out on me one night and kicked me out. i'm grateful that we didn't have a baby, but still long for one in my life. i'm hoping that, when the time comes, i will be in a healthy relationship.