Thank you everyone! I went out of town this weekend so I hadn't read all of the responses. He showed his true colors once again when We got disconnected due to spotty cell reception where i was for the weekend and he went off on me for "hanging up on him". My Stephen minister at church sent me some links on having a safety plan for when I'm ready to go NC, so those should be helpful as well. I appreciate all of the support!! (and for nobody judging that it's been hard to let go...)