SlimSlim

What life is left for you...it's up to you to decide. Your path right now of 4 bottles a day is going to kill you and leave your children without a mother after having already lost a father.

Like Sugarbear said, alcohol is a depressant and your alcohol intake may have been such that you have never been able to properly grieve the death of your beloved husband.

Anxiety is also a part of heavy drinking. We're not supposed to give medical advice here, so you might want to google "anxiety asthma attacks" and discuss this with the rehab program and how they would manage your multiple health issues during detox.

With 4 bottles of wine a day, medically supervised detox should be a given.

My condolences on the loss of your husband. Getting sober and staying sober, along with some grief counseling will help you reclaim your life and find treasured memories of your husband and allow you to feel the part of him that you carry with you everyday. His love lives on inside of you...right now the wine won't let you feel it.