i had such a difficult time admitting i was an alcoholic. i kept thinking i was just going through a rough patch, and that if i could figure out my 'issues' i would be able to drink normally.
the rough patch lasted 10 years, and it's pretty hard to figure out your issues with a brain riddled with booze.
i've found that drinking is one of many symptoms of my disease- that a lot of what led me to drink were what i consider to be my 'thinking problems'.
i do feel special (in a good way) because i have a program which helps me, everyday, to deal with everything in my life.
so really, because of my alcoholism, i get this amazing support and community....none of my normal drinking friends have that.
and i'm finally starting to LIKE myself again...can't recall the last time i felt that way.
feel special. you are special.
love and prayers for your journey,
hil