Admitting your are an alcoholic
For me - this was one of the hardest parts of my recovery. I didn't want to believe it. I wanted to believe that I was normal, that this was curable, that I just needed to learn some self control. That I could "handle" it. Well - I know I was wrong. I know I am an alcoholic. I know that when I'm in AA, my story my be different, but my disease is the same. At first - this brings about a sense of guilt, frustration, and sadness. Almost like I'm mourning my past life. However - I know I have to get off my pity pot and DO something about it. I want to be grateful, to see the light of things, to be proud of myself ... I want to feel different in a GOOD way, Not in a Ohhh ... YOU'VE got a drinking problem, while everyone else in the world is "normal". How have others dealt with this?