It's day four for me today. I went to a meeting and hung around chatting first thing in the morning and felt great. So great in fact that I got to thinking I should bump it up a notch, or maybe a couple notches starting with some bourbon. I nipped that line of thinking in the bud and then I felt the world closing in and my thoughts turning dark and depressed. It's almost as if the addiction is trying things to get me to go out again. "Hm happy is not working let's try depressed and see if that gets this fool drinking"
STFU stupid addiction
I have to do a better job at recovery this time. At least I'm hanging around chatting.