Weasel, I'm so glad you had that experience! A big reward for all your hard work at recovery and at work! Very insightful about the shame preceding you into the room. I would guess most alcoholics are so used to feeling shame that they can't see the positives. If you are a perfectionist alcoholic it's even worse.
I was like that at work too. I could have a very productive week filled with great interactions and accomplishments and I'd be focusing on the couple of mornings I was hungover and the guilt over that. I'd work triple time to make up for it too.
Now that I don't have to worry all the time about being a fully functioning alcoholic (heaven forbid I was a slacker because then I really WOULD be an alcoholic right?) I'm afraid I'm thinking so clearly I'm going to wake up to the reality that I really want a new career and am really sick of the one I'm in lol