I don't know if it is like this for you, but for me after I drink I get even more worried, fearful, and paranoid about what I was anxious about in the first place. Drinking just messes with my mind like that, and I can't think as rationally and clearly especially after a binge....and worrying can turn into an all out panic attack. I think you will feel a lot more confident on day 1 if you don't drink.
keep us posted about how you are doing and about the job, OK? a
Hugs
