Congrats on the job and the new opportunity, and the amazing progress you made. I know how it feels to be held up in the house scared to go outside. It is great that you posted!
You mentioned that you were,
"Agrivated from waiting, absolute bordom, anger, and worried with tense and sore shoulders I decided to drink. Last night I drank again."
I want to drink as well when I get that way. A plan of attack works wonders for me. I know it is very hard though. For me drinking was my answer to every problem, but I am learning other ways.
What I do is:
I go to this room. I post and read posts
Go to AA (working the steps) and have a workbook at home also
Hush my Addictive voice
HALT (hungry, angry, lonely, tired)
Read my list of reasons I cannot drink( long ass list).
Remember how horrible it was when I was drinking. I know that whatever I am feeling that drinking will only make things worse, way worse.
Accept that I can't have that first drink
Play music
Exercise or just get out of the house
Talk to a friend
Know that urge to drink will pass, it always does if I do not give in.
I am sure there is more, but those are the main things.
I am NOT perfect at all and only sober coming up on 8 weeks, but I am holding onto my sobriety for dear life here
I hope you decide not to drink tonight.