I have no Idea how to handle my emotions and confusions honestly. Every night I am a train wreck looking to blank out all my pain.
Yeh , learning how to take the pain without drink or drugs is hard, took me 15 years from where you are now before the pain of changing was less than the pain of staying where i was, nearly did my liver in . Good news is you don't have to be like me, some of what people say might sound stupid but they got some big experience and you've got to respect that .
If you cant change what happens outside you head you got to change whats going on inside your head . If i can do it you probally can you got a great headstart,
cheers, i'm off to work, take care bud , M