Freshstart, your reply really resonated with me.
Trying to get sober, most of us do go through that split personality deal. If the emotional side can begin to listen to the rational side, there's greater chance for success on a day by day basis.
I know it has taken me a while to gear up for this and I have to keep finding ways to support my emotional side so that I can build up the courage to face my fears that have held me back.