Hmmm... Did I write that? Could have. I feel the same way. At first when I tried to stay sober things seemed to get worse. Like I was acting out like a kid because I was not going to give it up without a fight.
Well sorry to say... Things do matter. They matter a lot. It's not easy to see when just starting. I know. I am blurry eyed with depression today. But I can still see hope in your post.
You can go longer than a week if you want to. Things do matter to you... If you want them... See where I am going with this...
It's all you with super support from us.
Ken