I only know you from here, but you are one of the kindest, wisest, got-your-head-together people I know and I have absolutely no doubt that a healthy wonderful relationship awaits you once you finish working through this and healing. Sick attracts sick and healthy attracts healthy...and you have become wiser and heathier with every day here.
If this little girl can find her self-esteem, so will you.
Hugs and Hugs