To be honest with you, the physical withdrawl is the easy part to beat. Yes, you will feel like crap for a while but that is short lived. The real battle you (and me too) will fight is with your mind. Just know that you can do it, you have before, and that you cannot handle even one of the pills. From reading your posts, I know you can beat this, you just have to convince yourself that you can and you will. Best wishes and God's blessings to you.