Freein2012, i obviously got a lot of work ahead of me before i am able to feel as sane as you. I need to figure out what exactly i am feeling. Am i just hurt? is it just my ego? Do i really want him? Or just the idea of a happy family? Familiarity?
How do you "let" your kids just spend time with him? I can not even fathom that right now. I want to remove him from our life. Let me correct, i think i have to. I don't see myself being able to deal with seeing him all the time in regards to our son.
Right now i have sole custody over him. My whole family is overseas. That is where i grew up. In the separation agreement it states, that i can take him there. But last night on the phone he said, that he has everything in place so i will not be able to do that. That scared me.