Spencer:
It seems AA is not for you. That's ok. It wasn't for me, either. But, even though ranting in frustration over that may feel good for a short time, it isn't a plan for recovery. In the end we each have to pick out what works for us...if that isn't AA, then move on.
Please come see us in the secular forums. Check out SMART Recovery, AVRT, SOS, LifeRing, etc. There are so many ways to do this, and you can even pick a little bit here and a little bit there. Don't stop searching, just because you haven't found the right path quite yet.