Thank you all so VERY VERY much!!! I have made my decision and that decision is me and MY life. I am extricating myself out of this horrible relationship (if you can even call it that). I will continue to post (because I still have A LOT of work and healing ahead) and I will actively go to ACOA/Al Anon.
For any newbies reading....... keep posting, keep reading. This forum and these posters will give you strength to do what YOU need to do. THANK YOU!!!!!!!! Love you!!!!!