I feel your pain. I tried to get sober a few months ago and fell on my face. I opened up to my wife and she was 100 percent supportive. It has been much better since then. I dont know your family situation but why not tell your husband? I was so paranoid in the beginning and the first step is the hardest but it's gets easier. I am now almost 30 days. Lots of love and support to you. You can do it!!