Stress, tension and anxiety were my constant companions for the 4 weeks I lasted with the drunk.....and of course, the surreal sense of impending doom I always felt around the drunk. This was after the initial 14 day period where all was bliss, though there were signs that my infatuated mind was blind to. But inevitably the signs overrode the infatuation.
I'll never forget the daily and nighty sweating, the bad feelings of coming home from work to watch the drunk sit on a couch and guzzle beer and vodka until 3am, the lack of intimacy, the realization that the drunk had regressed from 12 years ago and the shock of seeing how much the drunk had changed into a person I didnt know or particularly liked.
I dont know what is going to happen to the drunk, it is 4th stage alcoholic syndrome, there are all kinds of physical and mental ailments, and no signs of slowing down. But this drunk is not my problem any longer. But I do fear checking the obits section of the paper.