This is what I love about this group...so many insights that hit the nail right on the head.
I don't think I recognized the stress coming from the light shining on what our relationship really is. I see it in the arguments we have and the anticipation of arguments to come, but not from the fact this relationship is hitting bottom yet again.
I should have seen this as lately I've felt the feeling in the pit of my stomach thinking this could be over soon, yet again.
It is amazing though how it does build up inside you and comes out in such a physical way. I am supposed to see him in about an hour with a group of friends and I already feel the tension wondering what buttons he's going to push and what's going to trigger me.
This is an unbelievable pattern it's hard for me to fathom I have yet to get off of it. What the hell does it take? me being committed?