I talked with my AH tonight. My Ah wakes up screaming my name (So he says), but still won't get treatment. He's angry at me for leaving, but still fails to see the big picture.
I can't even talk to him without getting frustrated with him. He doesn't need help I do according to him. I'm sure I do. All of us do.
A part of me was hoping that if I left he would wake up. I know he's in there somewhere. I know he loves the kids and I beneath the fog. He was a wonderful man and alcohol has destroyed our lives.
I feel angry, betrayed, hurt, abonded (even though I left him), and confused. The last thing I want to do is give up. What if we divorse and he gets sober? Will another woman get the man that I've been waiting so long to have back? The kids and I deserve the him I know he is capable of being.
T. Graham Brown
And once upon a time you turned the water into wine
Now on my knees I'm turning to you father
Could you help me turn the wine back into water