Here is a thread that I had after a really bad relapse. I dont know if it will help you or not but the first one that I started here doesnt exist anymore. I thought I was going to die, no kidding. It is scary as hell, embrace that fear and log it in your mind forever...It is what keeps you sober when it passes.
Thank YOU for helping to keep me sober today!!
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ad.php?t=29541