The EXTREME urge to drink.
I knew this would happen. I am sitting here with a headache gritting my teeth. I keep on trying to go to the liquor store. I don't even want beer, I want vodka. I wish I could just block all of this **** out and be numb for a night. I am really trying to abstain. The stress I have been dealing with is really starting to take a toll on me, physically and emotionally. I apologize for the rant, but I feel lost, pissed off, anxious and depressed at the same time and I can't run to alcohol like I am so used to doing with all of my problems. I am a trainwreck.
Dom