Thanks to all again - Sorry it took so long to get back but somehow my Internet provider blocked this web site and I had to call Tech support - That was NOT easy for me to do since this is personal stuff Haha!
Anyway - I am still struggling - slips here and there and feeling like c*ap.
Somehow I feel I can't do this. Somehow I feel like I am not wanting to "be" anymore. Last year I put it down no problem, and now I can't stop