glad to meet ya and see ya here.
i belive the relief is from surrender.
the fear of not knowing how to function without alcohol is somrthing i can relate to. using alcohol for everything was all i knew. that fear was of the unknown. i had to get me some courage. that plus i knew in my heart that alcohol wasnt helping and wasnt gonna help anymore.
i also went to AA. the program and the fellowship taught me how to function.