Originally Posted by
bbthumper 
I hit a strange mental blank spot and suddenly I am convinced that "this time will be different. This time I can control it." Never worked for me. I was without defense against the first drink.
My problem is I don't think I can control it. I just think, "oh well, you're probably going to get really crazy and do some really stupid stuff, but that's life. ying and yang". :/