Humiliated

I too went almost 2 weeks and then we had company over Saturday and I convinced myself that I could just have a few drinks. Unfortunately even when everyone else was done and leaving, I wanted the drinking to go on! Ended up drinking with alcoholic neighbor across the street and spent all day in bed yesterday. About a year ago I wanted to totally quit drinking and it was actually my husband that pressured me into believing I could moderate, always making it sound like it was just the hangover saying I should never drink again. Meanwhile he will make condencending remarks about me being an alcoholic, and actually said to me couple weeks ago that I'm an alcoholic but he accepts me for who I am. I got pisse and he tried to play it off like he was joking, but there was truth in his words. I always wonder if he is afraid of me being sober and not feeling worthless?