I feel so ashamed that he walked out on me. Who could possibly understand this?
L2L, I understand this, even though I had convinced myself I was better off without him. I was still ashamed that the effort I made was for nothing.
I do have the feeling sometimes that I will never get a partner who is willing to hang on when things get tough like I am. Not just the effort was enough, somehow I am not enough. I mean he chose drinking and crack over me and my kids. Even I know (as a drunk) it was not a choice he could make, he never made a good choice.
so, what does that make me?
It is very tiring and heartbreaking to feel misunderstood and alone.
I am lonely today. And I am sorry you are feeling this way today L2L.
I understand.
Beth