Originally Posted by Learn2Live

SuzyMarie, thank you so much for your kind and loving words. They truly touch my heart. I wish I had some moments of clarity but my feelings overwhelm me. I feel dead inside. I also thought I was too uptight because I couldn't deal with the constant chaos. Day after day it was problem and problem, complaint after complaint and I tried to teach him everything I know to help him calm down, help him relieve some of his anxiety. But he would never stick with any of it, even though he said he liked these things and wanted to do them every night (like yoga and deep breathing and other relaxation methods). Thank you so much for sharing all you shared in your post. I don't feel so alone.