Hello evilk,
I'm sober for 321 days now . When i started it was just 2 pints of cider to get me drunk . When i quit 22 years later it was about 2 or 3 bottles of spirit per weekend . I'm an alcoholic if i drink it only gets worse and my life only goes the same way .
The only way i've found of steadily making my life better is complete abstinance day by day, then working on how to give myself the best life and working on being the best me i can be .
I've done it thus far, you can as well, if you want it.
There is a wealth of experience, strength, hope and knowledge here if you want to make use of it . There are different methods of attaining and maintaining sobriety here, why not try one that speaks to you and start learning . Take what you can and leave the rest .
bestwishes, M